>__< AH!

If you could see my face right now you would understand this so much more. Oh man school is almost over, WHAT DO I DO?! i'm excited dont get me wrong. I'm just stressed out, its happy stress i guess but it is making me go CRAZY! Ha-Ha!

Summer goals

If i could, and i would tell the sun that i don't want to be friends anymore, because he keeps going behind my back and changing his mind about things, and i just simply cannot handle that kind of stress. But truthfully i do feel that way i just want to lay out in the sun and take in as much vitamin D as physically possible. For that my body would be grateful. My goals for the summer.

1. Work a ton and hopefully make bank for goal #2.
2. Get a decent/cheap/semi-normal car so that i can go to school in August.
3. Work some more to pay for things during the summer.
4. Get freakishly tan so i can start my senior year off freaking hot!
5. Grow my hair out a little longer because i atleast want be able to curl it one day.
6. Maybe start writing poetry again.
7. Make some friends (I don't know when that will come into play and where but i want it to so i am still praying for it.)
8. Play in the water.
9. Get pumped up for the Dental Assisting Program.
10. Have a blast.
11. BE that person that everyone wants to call and be like "Hey what up Dani, do you wanna hang? I mean you are like the most freaking awesome person that i know and i wanna spend every chance i get to hang out with you and your awesome dude!!"
12. Grow a foot or two.
13. Catch a quail that live under our pine tree.
14. Grow flowers.
15. Master the art of making Bajio's rice.
16. Get freaking amazing abs (yeah that means i MIGHT start trying instead of sitting around on the computer)
17. Decide what i wanna do when i graduate.
18. Plan a way awesome 18th Birthday Party! (that's right family i wanna go race go-carts and Lazar tag and do that fun jump rope electronic game that made everyone and Boondocks look at our family like we were crazy)
19. Maybe work on my eating habits.
20. Learn to do something new, be it a talent or a skill.

well that's all that i can do right now because i have to stop i have other things i gotta do right now. SO if you can help with any of these....leave a comment thanks!

I'm addicted to CREAM!

I love Cream, everything about it.

• Ice CREAM
• CREAM cheese
• Irish CREAM coffee mate
• whipped CREAM
• Sour CREAM
• Russian CREAM (Kelly's of course)
• CREAMy potato soup (Mine hello is the best!)
• Boston CREAM pie
• Orange CREAM sobe's
• CREAM filled eclairs
• CREAM puffs
• CREAM cheese icing
• Chocolate CREAM filled chocolates
• The colour CREAM
• Marshmallow CREAM (fluffin'nutter for those who know what i am talking about)
• CREAMy Alfredo sauce
• Heavy CREAM

Now look at that list and look me in the eyes and say "Dani you cant have milk anymore." and i will just look back and say "Jenifer...JENIFER PLEASE" (family inside joke but it is pretty darn funny right now as i am writing' it!) Oh haha but really i was talking with Jordan today about it in the kitchen while i was making Nachos and i slapped a "dollop of daisy" onto them and i looked at her and said "I love CREAM" and went on a list about it which lead to this blog!

Oh man i just tried on my Prom dress again, and now that i look at this list i realize that i gotta lay off the cream or this may not be a night to remember :) haha Ta ta for now everybody.

Dani, signing off!

six things that keep me thinking.

This is pretty much a blog about everything in my head at this moment in time and from the time of the last blog and before. (Complete Jibberish so...here is your warning if non of it flows together) So first in the running...
#1- I can't stand that i can never be fully happy with my hair. Everyone says that they love it every time i cut it but really i can never be pleased with it and need constant change. Which is the reason i had to cut it all off anyways because when you dye your hair like every month cause you want a change, it starts to fall out. and it is gross.
#2- Prom dress shopping it extremely hard, especially when you are looking for a tight form fitting dress that hugs your curves but doesn't make you look pregnant. (That last part is a CHALLENGE!) but i found one. second part of prom dressing that makes it suck, in the world we live in everything has to be low cut and with no sleeves. which causes a dilemma and makes it so much harder because as discussed with Makayla you need to have football player pads on and massive shoulders to even start to think about fitting into Alyse's Bridal gowns or be able to afford the $$$ of getting it altered to fit your needs. Third, $,$$$,$$$ oh could dresses get any more expensive! do they realize that i am on a BUDGET!? the dress i found is beautiful, fits me perfectly and the colour makes me look as tan as my mom but i am not really, the problem is that is it almost $200 and that is not including the accessories and such, and the shrug and all of that. That is allot of money$
#4- Me looking like i just got pulled out of a story about Lepers (disgusting) I tend to dislike summer. Yes i do love the warm weather and school being done but really.... i have to wear pants, and i have to wear either long or quarter sleeves, to cover up the awfulness of my arms and legs. Don't even get me started on Swimming and Swimsuit shopping. Cause just like every girl in the world i want to look my best and especially when i am in a swimsuit. but shopping for swimsuits is probably the most depressing thing that i can do, because its when most of my skin is exposed. which means i am pretty much a walking disease. i have enough to be self conscious about. This is just one more thing to add. Sometimes i just cant handle it. I tried on a cute suit yesterday, and i almost didn't want to come out of the room to show Jordan. I just turned my back to the mirror and looked over my shoulder at my reflection. This sad show continued on through dress shopping, because all the dresses are sleeveless. case closed.
#5- Yesterday had its upside too, I had a good day at work filled with allot of little things that i will probably work into a blog in the soon months when i remember that i shouldn't keep my emotions in me and that's the only reason i got a blog was to go "BLAHEIHDSKE" all over. I had fun.
#6- Change...I hate it.
I know this is a classic blog where it is just pure nonsense but when i write i don't really expect people to read it. so sorry :)

I cant save everyone, I try honestly very hard. I just can't but if I can help you. Don't hesitate to ask. Really even if it is something so simple that you feel super dumb about asking for it. Please ask. I like to feel needed.

"What we are is more important than what we have been, And what we can become is more important than what we are."

-Dr. Brent Barlow

I have probably started this blog out about ten diffrent ways...well more like eleven but i just cant figure out what to write about. I want to say that i am going crazy and turning in a cowgirl and feeling super down to earth and happy again. I feel like i have been in constant recovery sence July and i am finally to the point that i have changed so much about myself, my hair, my clothes, my room, my friends, school, music, style, singing style, and again i am changing my music styling, i am set in a country rut. (I feel like my voice was ment to sing this kind of music.) so because i have changed this much i finally feel like i have changed enough and am finally what i wanna be.

Well i am in a blank.

I dont have much to say but that i finally feel like i am where i want to be and i am very happy about it.

and i dont care what anyone says about that fact. I'm proud of what i am changing into.

Oh my hair.

I have stayed home twice this week, one from sickness, and one from pure embarrassment. Last night we dyed my hair (at least tried) with Henna, 7/11 Coffee and mass amounts of heat and then waited, the finished result was me smelling like a farm and a cup of coffee and having my Blondie patch turn a very unappealing colourful shade of green. We washed it and i cant get the smell out so i just stayed home. We are going to dye it again with REAL dye in about an hour or so.
So here is my advice, dont use henna to colour your hair. TADA!

I think that i have picked my song for my audition. its either "Abide with me, tis eventide" or "In the arms of an Angel" by: Sarah McLachlan
I need help choosing.